Love Life

Hi everyone, this is my third time doing a blog in my lifetime, this time i will become sentimental abit  because i will talk about another side of me, the weak side of me, and about my love life. Hope anyone who reads my blog can give me some advice on the problem I currently facing.

Although normally i look like im strong and tough, but thats only a shell that i use to cover up the weak side of me, actually im sensitive and kinda cry baby, sometimes i will cry alone in my bed if i think about losing something/someone that i precious the most, like someone i love. In my life there is only 3 women that i been in love with, first one is my mom, second is a girl form KL and third one is a cute girl from Pahang, although im really in love with this 2 girls, but in the end, im just another stepping stone for them to reach their true love.

I seriously think that I could with them for 10 years, 20 years even till the end of my life, but at the end its all only a beautiful dream. The time that i spended with them is the memory i will remember my whole life, especially the third girl that i meet when in uni, she is a girl that kinda cool blooded, because normally she wont show any sign that she love me, but i know im still got a certain places in her heart, and she sometimes kinda shy to say "I Love U" to me, everytime she also will say to me when she about to exit the car after we go for a date, and she will say it slowly so only me will heard it, but this is why i love her. In that time, we dating in library, we walk from campus to town to buy gloceries and then having dinner together, i really enjoy the time that we spend together. She also a girl that like to travel, sometime at the weekend, we will ask my friend to share a car and then we travel around the place that she never been like beach, picnic at river or go for movie. In short, I'm really loving her and enjoy the time that I spend with her, i love the way she smile, the smell of her and the moment when she slept on my shoulder, all of this still stick in my head eventhough its been a long time since we breakup.

Now, the girl that i in love with already found her true love(maybe), and im back to single life, no more dating in library, no more holding hand. Everytime i saw her, my brain will remaid me back the happy time we had before, everytime i saw she message her love one, my heart will feel a shock of pain, im still love her, I'm still wanting to date with her, but i think all of this is impossible now, its improper to do so since she already in love with someone else, the only thing that i can do now is to let her go, erase any sweet memory of her in my brain (i dont want to), and hope for the best for her. I dunno she will read my blog or not, but i just want to tell her, i still miss you, and hope you will stay forever with your loved one.

And for my future dear, if you read this post, pls do contact me where are you now, im kinda old already for waiting game, thx for reading.